Am I... could I possibly be... SATAN'S CHILD?

When I was in the 8th grade I started listening to this band, Black Veil Brides. They instantly became my favorite band. 8th grade year was rough for me, I went through my very first heartbreak. I started dressing in all black, dark heavy eyeliner.... They called me "emo".... Was emo really the right label. Emo is some stereo-typical label for people who listen to heavy/death metal "screamo" music, shop at Hot Topic, and cut themselves. Well I did listen to heavy metal, I did shop at Hot Topic, and I was going through a rough time where I would cut myself to ease the pain of my aunt's passing... but I wouldn't consider myself "emo". My mom thought it was just a phase, everything would change soon. No one knew about my scars, until second semester... of sophomore year. Things got better freshman year, and the first part of sophomore year. When December of sophomore came, something clicked. To this day I don't know what it was, but I'm happy where I am now. 2 years ago, I got with the wrong crowd... got into drugs and drinking. In February, I was sent to rehab for the first time, for a suicide attempt. At the time, I hated being in there, but looking back it helped me a lot. I have been there a couple times now, and I finally got on the right medication. Through that tough time, music was my only escape. I would listen to Black Veil Brides, because the message they send to their fans is beautiful. I can relate to the lead singer, Andy, because he was bullied in life. One day, my 'great aunt' had to butt in. I hadn't met this woman, so I'm like who the hell is this commenting on my Facebook page? She would say a whole bunch of God stuff, and tell me that the music I was listening to was the devil's music. She told my great uncle who was my grandma's brother, that she was worried about me. To this day, I hate that woman. She started something that the music I listened to was about suicide. Like no, you haven't even listened to them.
I got into paranormal stuff. Like playing with Ouija boards. My life took a turn for the worst...
I've been through counseling, hospitals, rehab...
It is now Senior year. For the first time in 4 years, I can now say I am happy. I am 3 months clean of cutting. I am worried one day I will relapse; but for now I am staying strong, all because of Andy and his music. I still listen to metal.. but that doesn't make me suicidal. The music I listen to is not turning me against God. I am happy the way I am right now.


The message of this blog, is that YOU can overcome ANYTHING. Whether it be a death of a loved one, bullying, .... anything. Just believe in yourself and stick to what you know.
Stay strong! <3