What I did on my day off....

We had yesterday off for election day... here's a list of what I did...


1. I woke up at 9:30 am and was like screw this so I went back to bed until noon.
2. I went downstairs and ate some frosted flakes while I watched reruns of Full House.
3. I realized the milk I put on my cereal was bad....
4. I threw up.
5. I fell asleep in my mom's bed until 4:00.
6. I texted my friend, Dylan and we spent 20 minutes in a gas station picking out food.
7. We went to my house and watched TV and he went home at 6:30.
8. I went to dinner with my mom.
9. I went home and watched Degrassi.
10. I went to bed at 10.


OMG I am in love with Aerosmith!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dancing, heartbreaks, and sister bonding.

On Friday night for Halloween, I went to the mall with Mikey. I don't know if that would be the worst or best night of my life. First off, he took me to our special spot and explained to me everything that was going on. He told me that he's moving next weekend to Nashville for college, or going into the Marines. I'm very supportive of him, and I'm happy he has made up his mind. After that and a few billion tears later, we hung out on the roof of some store where it was freezing. But it was sorta romantic.. I couldn't stop crying though... knowing that was the end of us. We got dinner that night and then he kissed me goodnight. I was so upset that night that I got sick, and I cried myself to sleep. I feel like my heart has been ripped out and eaten by a lion.


Saturday night, I went to the dance with some friends. I really didn't want to go cause I was still upset from the night before. I went anyways... lame dance by the way. There was like.. no good music. It was good to see friends though. We went out to eat after. Our waitress was a complete bitch. I get you're busy but when I didn't get my food until I was walking out the door... that's pretty bad.


I haven't seen my sister in forever! She called me last night to talk about Christmas presents. We might have lunch on Saturday which I am excited for. I miss hanging out with her.

November 1st, 2014

Before I get into what's going on Saturday, I just have to say the senior line dance this year is amazing... like AMAZING AMAZING....! I wish it could be longer though :( For Halloween this year I'm going to be an identity thief.

Anyways... so Saturday.... November 1st...
1st off... it's the dance. I'm gonna see Mikey... I'm a little nervous that I will completely fall in love with him again... well I haven't really stopped loving him to be honest. I hope he feels the same.. because I won't be able to go through a heartbreak.. I haven't felt like this before...
2nd thing: It will be 2 years that Mitch Lucker has been dead. I love Mitch... his music...everything. He was one of my all time favorite band members. Fuck you pole that he crashed into. It's gonna be hard. Rest in peace </3 Your family, friends, and fans miss you like crazy. YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE SO JUST GO FUCKING NUTS!!!!! I hope we hear your stomping :)
3rd and final thing....
It will be one year that I met my best friend!
On November 1st, 2013 I was on Facebook on a Mitch Lucker fan page. There was a picture of Mitch Lucker's grave... with comments from a bunch of fans...and haters... I was reading through some of the comments when I came across an online fight. This girl named Taylor, had commented how much she loved Mitch and his band Suicide Silence and stuff like how she felt bad for his family and stuff. This rude asshole commented telling Taylor to follow in her hero's (Mitch) lyrics... His comment said "If you're so upset about it.. do as your hero said... PULL THE TRIGGER, BITCH! I thought that was awfully rude. Normally I wouldn't jump into it.. but this gave me a certain feeling. I felt like I really needed to do something. I reported the comments to Facebook and I messaged this Taylor girl. I had NO idea who she was, but I couldn't let some random asshole talk to her like that, because I know how it feels. I messaged her just to say how bad I felt and I'm here if she needed to talk and to just ignore that guy. She replied explaining to me that she was thinking about doing something she would regret.. and how I saved her. I felt so amazing about that. To this day, Taylor and I are still best friends and we have never met. I love you Taylor!!!!!

the doors that spin, sleepwalking, and .... justice

I really love those spinning doors.
I was watching We're the Millers the other day and woah... it gets funnier every time.
Last night I saw a dove in my room in a cage but im like wtf we don't have a dove. Then I kept smelling blueberry pie.. but it was 11 pm. I got so confused.

Idk what to name this.....

So a lot has been going on lately. I just can't seem to remember anything. Possible concussion.... oops. My boyfriend broke up with me a week ago.... for no reason. But he's coming to the dance on Saturday so we will see where it goes from there.
I just saw Chelsea was reading my last blog and I already told you about the break up.. see I clearly don't remember anything and I am too lazy to delete the previous paragraph.
I cannot be the only one who cried when I heard about Oscar Taveras passing. He was so young and had a great future ahead of him. I feel so bad for the Cardinals... losing a team member is like losing a family member. Rest in peace </3

cute babies and dead old woman encounters and pie... OH MY

The other night, I went in my room to try to find my book that my sister had made me of all my poems... I didn't find that... but what I did find will give you the heebie jeebies. Let me start over... for the past week or so I have been seeing this little girl in my dreams and having hallucinations of her. She keeps telling me to pray. I had no idea who this little girl was... until yesterday. Tuesday night, when I went to find my book, I found a notebook on my shelf. I thought this was weird because I cleaned my book shelf 2 weeks ago.. I had never seen that notebook in my life! I started to read it and found out that it was a journal my great grandmother had kept. She passed away in march...
I went to my grandma's house yesterday to give her the notebook.. I told her about the girl I've been seeing and she said it sounded like her mother when she was a young girl...
HOW THE HELL DID THE NOTEBOOK GET IN MY ROOM?!??
It wasn't there 2 weeks ago and no one has been in my room since then.


Yesterday, I was babysitting... I was upset and laying on the couch, when the kid came up to me and covered me with his baby blankets and gave me a kiss. He is only 16 months.. he is soooo smart for his age! He made my day 546491633749843489653153674687434518666543 times better!


I was at this place with my dad... and I hate pie. But we got this thing which was pumpkin pie and cheesecake mixed with caramel drizzled over the top. I fell in love!

heartbreaks and coffee.... wtf

So this morning I went to McDonald's to get a hot chocolate... and once again they gave me coffee. Dumbasses really need to go back to school and get an education.
I went to see The Best of Me on Saturnight (saturday night) and i must say... BEST MOVIE I HAVE EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR SEEN!


Yesterday... I was sitting in class..... when i got a text message. I checked it on my way to 7th hour... The text was from Michael... and he said we couldn't be together anymore.... and didn't give me a valid reason. 1,000,000 tears later... and it still feels like someone stabbed me in the heart then ripped it out and fed it to jeffrey dahmer.


With support from friends... i guess i'm doing okay. We're gonna talk about it in a couple days. But you know... whatever.


Dear fan,
Please.. STFU.
Sincerely,
One pissed off student.