When I was in the 8th grade I started listening to this band, Black Veil Brides. They instantly became my favorite band. 8th grade year was rough for me, I went through my very first heartbreak. I started dressing in all black, dark heavy eyeliner.... They called me "emo".... Was emo really the right label. Emo is some stereo-typical label for people who listen to heavy/death metal "screamo" music, shop at Hot Topic, and cut themselves. Well I did listen to heavy metal, I did shop at Hot Topic, and I was going through a rough time where I would cut myself to ease the pain of my aunt's passing... but I wouldn't consider myself "emo". My mom thought it was just a phase, everything would change soon. No one knew about my scars, until second semester... of sophomore year. Things got better freshman year, and the first part of sophomore year. When December of sophomore came, something clicked. To this day I don't know what it was, but I'm happy where I am now. 2 years ago, I got with the wrong crowd... got into drugs and drinking. In February, I was sent to rehab for the first time, for a suicide attempt. At the time, I hated being in there, but looking back it helped me a lot. I have been there a couple times now, and I finally got on the right medication. Through that tough time, music was my only escape. I would listen to Black Veil Brides, because the message they send to their fans is beautiful. I can relate to the lead singer, Andy, because he was bullied in life. One day, my 'great aunt' had to butt in. I hadn't met this woman, so I'm like who the hell is this commenting on my Facebook page? She would say a whole bunch of God stuff, and tell me that the music I was listening to was the devil's music. She told my great uncle who was my grandma's brother, that she was worried about me. To this day, I hate that woman. She started something that the music I listened to was about suicide. Like no, you haven't even listened to them.
I got into paranormal stuff. Like playing with Ouija boards. My life took a turn for the worst...
I've been through counseling, hospitals, rehab...
It is now Senior year. For the first time in 4 years, I can now say I am happy. I am 3 months clean of cutting. I am worried one day I will relapse; but for now I am staying strong, all because of Andy and his music. I still listen to metal.. but that doesn't make me suicidal. The music I listen to is not turning me against God. I am happy the way I am right now.
The message of this blog, is that YOU can overcome ANYTHING. Whether it be a death of a loved one, bullying, .... anything. Just believe in yourself and stick to what you know.
Stay strong! <3
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Wednesday, October 8, 2014
My weekend + belly button blood = CHOCOLATE PUDDING??????
On Thursday, my best friend Ethan, came home from college for a visit. I met him and my other best friend Alison up at McDonald's. It was so great to have the gang back together, since we have all been the Three Musketeers since my sophomore year. It all started in Mr. Stein's French 1 class. All the good memories started there. Then on Friday, the three of us went to the mall. We were all so exhausted so we went home. Saturday was super fun.... except I don't remember most of it. I remember we rented the movie Neighbors and got some Imo's pizza. We went to Alison's house to watch it. That movie was......interesting..... idk how else to explain it..... Then anyways, we said goodbye to Ethan.
Sunday.... I slept all day.
Anyway, today is Wednesday and I thought it was gonna be a good day. Half day of school and then babysitting. Which means I will be at my grandma's house.... which means..... 50000000 cups of CHOCOLATE PUDDING. I usually only get 2... but if I tell my grandma what I woke up to this morning, maybe I will get 4. I woke up this morning.. too early I might add, to realize I overslept the blood red moon thing. Whatever! I felt this stinging like thing on my belly button. I look down to realize my belly button piercing is half ripped out. FANTASTIC...
hopefully today gets better.
Sunday.... I slept all day.
Anyway, today is Wednesday and I thought it was gonna be a good day. Half day of school and then babysitting. Which means I will be at my grandma's house.... which means..... 50000000 cups of CHOCOLATE PUDDING. I usually only get 2... but if I tell my grandma what I woke up to this morning, maybe I will get 4. I woke up this morning.. too early I might add, to realize I overslept the blood red moon thing. Whatever! I felt this stinging like thing on my belly button. I look down to realize my belly button piercing is half ripped out. FANTASTIC...
hopefully today gets better.
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
My weekend
I had probably one of the best weekends of my life this past weekend. On Friday night, I went to the gym that my mom works out at, and I got to meet Jim Edmonds. He signed a baseball I got, and then HE asked ME to take a selfie with him. I was soooooo happy! Then I got a smoothie from Smoothie King. On Saturday, I went to the Art Museum with my mom. Then my friend Alison, picked me up and we had quite the adventure driving around town. Here's all the places we went:
Car Wash ~ don't ask... never put 2 blondes together to do a project
Bread Co. ~ Alison wanted a smoothie
McDonald's ~ we got a large drink then sat outside for a while and left
South County Mall ~ to get new shoes and stalk cute boys
Yo My Goodness ~ who doesn't want a little fro yo?
Subway ~ dinner
The Loop at like 9:30 ~ just to walk around... I got some Pokki... Japanese food... nasty
McDonald's at 10:30 ~ get a free refill
Then on Sunday I got Mexican food with my dad and my grandma. We went back to my grandma's house and watched the movie, Haunting Sarah. It was good but lame.
Car Wash ~ don't ask... never put 2 blondes together to do a project
Bread Co. ~ Alison wanted a smoothie
McDonald's ~ we got a large drink then sat outside for a while and left
South County Mall ~ to get new shoes and stalk cute boys
Yo My Goodness ~ who doesn't want a little fro yo?
Subway ~ dinner
The Loop at like 9:30 ~ just to walk around... I got some Pokki... Japanese food... nasty
McDonald's at 10:30 ~ get a free refill
Then on Sunday I got Mexican food with my dad and my grandma. We went back to my grandma's house and watched the movie, Haunting Sarah. It was good but lame.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
John Stamos
Have you ever had a favorite actor?
You love EVERYTHING they do and EVERYTHING about them?
I am talking about John Stamos. I started watching reruns of Full House when I was really young, and ever since I have been watching it. I have 63 episodes recorded right now to be honest. I love all the actors on there, but I am attached to John Stamos. I bet I can give you 10 good reasons why I love him, and why I am one of his biggest fans.
1) His looks! Obviously this would be the first thing on the list, but it's the damn truth! He was hot young, and he's 51 years old now and still sexy! How could you not love that?
2) His hair. He has every right to love those luscious locks.
3) Not to be stereo-typical, but most attractive famous actors can be cocky and man whores.... but not good ol' John! He is romantic... and telling Lori Loughlin that she was the one that got away? My heart would have melted right there!
4) His role as Uncle Jesse on Full House. Nuff said...
5) He's great with kids!
6) He's caring, and is generous to charities.
7) He can sing. I love my men who sing.
8) Plays guitar.... still nuff said.
9) His rebel rocker style as Uncle Jesse.
10) EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM.
I'm pretty sure there is SOMETHING I'm missing....
HAVE MERCY <3
You love EVERYTHING they do and EVERYTHING about them?
I am talking about John Stamos. I started watching reruns of Full House when I was really young, and ever since I have been watching it. I have 63 episodes recorded right now to be honest. I love all the actors on there, but I am attached to John Stamos. I bet I can give you 10 good reasons why I love him, and why I am one of his biggest fans.
1) His looks! Obviously this would be the first thing on the list, but it's the damn truth! He was hot young, and he's 51 years old now and still sexy! How could you not love that?
2) His hair. He has every right to love those luscious locks.
3) Not to be stereo-typical, but most attractive famous actors can be cocky and man whores.... but not good ol' John! He is romantic... and telling Lori Loughlin that she was the one that got away? My heart would have melted right there!
4) His role as Uncle Jesse on Full House. Nuff said...
5) He's great with kids!
6) He's caring, and is generous to charities.
7) He can sing. I love my men who sing.
8) Plays guitar.... still nuff said.
9) His rebel rocker style as Uncle Jesse.
10) EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM.
I'm pretty sure there is SOMETHING I'm missing....
HAVE MERCY <3
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Funny/Creepy things little kids say
Have you ever just sat down and had a conversation with a little miniature human? Some of the things they say are just out of the ordinary. Take this time for an example....
One time I was babysitting this 4 year old boy. He starts screaming in the middle of the night so I rush upstairs. I pick him up and he is in tears. I ask him what was wrong and what he told me shocked me... "The little girl in the corner keeps playing with my foot." I thought it was just a dream, but then he pointed at "her". All I saw was this little shadow. Ever since, I have been deathly afraid to go over there, because I knew that the previous family that lived there had a daughter who died in the house at a very young age. I wish I could forget about that but it is something that has haunted my dreams.
On a happier note....
There is this little boy, Declan I babysat before he went to pre-school. When he was 3, his baby brother was crawling towards him and he shouts out, "HERE COMES TROUBLE". Where did he learn that at. Or about the time his mom told me that she told him it was nap time. Within a few seconds, he shouted out, "God Dammit!" Really?? If I was him I would have gladly taken the nap, no questions asked.
I love how kids are so honest with you. Like if a kid tells you that you're ugly, you better bag that face. Kids can be your best friend, or your worst enemy.
One day Declan, handed me a flower he picked from the yard and asked if I would be his date to Chimichangas.
I love this kid!
One time I was babysitting this 4 year old boy. He starts screaming in the middle of the night so I rush upstairs. I pick him up and he is in tears. I ask him what was wrong and what he told me shocked me... "The little girl in the corner keeps playing with my foot." I thought it was just a dream, but then he pointed at "her". All I saw was this little shadow. Ever since, I have been deathly afraid to go over there, because I knew that the previous family that lived there had a daughter who died in the house at a very young age. I wish I could forget about that but it is something that has haunted my dreams.
On a happier note....
There is this little boy, Declan I babysat before he went to pre-school. When he was 3, his baby brother was crawling towards him and he shouts out, "HERE COMES TROUBLE". Where did he learn that at. Or about the time his mom told me that she told him it was nap time. Within a few seconds, he shouted out, "God Dammit!" Really?? If I was him I would have gladly taken the nap, no questions asked.
I love how kids are so honest with you. Like if a kid tells you that you're ugly, you better bag that face. Kids can be your best friend, or your worst enemy.
One day Declan, handed me a flower he picked from the yard and asked if I would be his date to Chimichangas.
I love this kid!
ways to piss off a teacher- revised
Have you ever had that teacher that you couldn't stand? Or what about that teacher you want to get revenge on because they gave you a D on the essay you spent a whole 20 minutes on? Teachers are just so unreasonable, it's pathetic. Like they get paid to teach, they chose that life. If it was up to me I would pick to stay home and watch Vines while stuffing my face with pizza rolls. Teachers are interrupting OUR lives and then they think we owe our full attention to them. Well here are just a few ways to get back at that one awful teacher......
1) Walk into their class with a bad attitude.
2) Constantly disobey their rules.
3) Never turn in your homework. (all though, that one may turn on you)
4) Sharpen your pencil when they are talking.
5) Keep blowing bubbles with your bubble gum and let it pop loudly.
6) Sag your pants.
7) Tell them that their teaching style sucks.
8) Skip class.
9) Constantly ask to leave the room--bathroom, drinks, nurse, locker, etc.....
10) Put your phone on full volume and say "Excuse me, I gotta take this."
11) Text over and over even when they say to put it away, then when they take it file a report for a stolen phone.
12) If they let you eat in class, make sure to leave crumbs, chew loudly, and rattle the bags.
13) "Accidently" spill your water.
14) Play your music when they say you can't.
1) Walk into their class with a bad attitude.
2) Constantly disobey their rules.
3) Never turn in your homework. (all though, that one may turn on you)
4) Sharpen your pencil when they are talking.
5) Keep blowing bubbles with your bubble gum and let it pop loudly.
6) Sag your pants.
7) Tell them that their teaching style sucks.
8) Skip class.
9) Constantly ask to leave the room--bathroom, drinks, nurse, locker, etc.....
10) Put your phone on full volume and say "Excuse me, I gotta take this."
11) Text over and over even when they say to put it away, then when they take it file a report for a stolen phone.
12) If they let you eat in class, make sure to leave crumbs, chew loudly, and rattle the bags.
13) "Accidently" spill your water.
14) Play your music when they say you can't.
ways to annoy your teacher
Have you ever had that teacher that you can't stand? Or that one you've wanted so badly to get revenge on because they gave you a D on the essay you worked a whole 20 minutes on? Here's your guide....
1) walk in class with an attitude
2) talk when they say no
3) leave crumbs if they allow you to eat
4) constantly ask to use the restroom, get a drink, go to your locker or the nurse, etc.
5) never come prepared
6) chew gum and pop the bubbles loudly
7) when your phone rings, say that it's important and you gotta take it
8) when they take your phone, go to the office and file a missing phone report
9) when they say to take a seat tell them that they are not God so therefore, they can't control you
10) turn your homework into a paper airplane when they say to pass it forward
11) sharpen your pencil everytime they try to teach
12) play the drums with your pencils during a test
13) gum on bottom of desks...nuff said
14) write super small
15) ask TOO MANY questions
16) be a smart ass
17) play basketball with your old papers... Bonus points if you make it in
18) fall asleep in class and snore loudly
19) whistle, hum, sing....
20) on fire drills, tell them they must prove there is fire
21) LOL for no reason
22) draw on their board
23) doodle on your desk...in pen (;
24) always be late
25) make up excuses why you couldn't do your homework
26) wear sunglasses and say you have a headache
27) always ask "WHY"
28) photoshop a picture of the teacher doing something embarrassing
29) insist on being Batman
30) make them look stupid by sounding super smart
Try not to get in trouble....
1) walk in class with an attitude
2) talk when they say no
3) leave crumbs if they allow you to eat
4) constantly ask to use the restroom, get a drink, go to your locker or the nurse, etc.
5) never come prepared
6) chew gum and pop the bubbles loudly
7) when your phone rings, say that it's important and you gotta take it
8) when they take your phone, go to the office and file a missing phone report
9) when they say to take a seat tell them that they are not God so therefore, they can't control you
10) turn your homework into a paper airplane when they say to pass it forward
11) sharpen your pencil everytime they try to teach
12) play the drums with your pencils during a test
13) gum on bottom of desks...nuff said
14) write super small
15) ask TOO MANY questions
16) be a smart ass
17) play basketball with your old papers... Bonus points if you make it in
18) fall asleep in class and snore loudly
19) whistle, hum, sing....
20) on fire drills, tell them they must prove there is fire
21) LOL for no reason
22) draw on their board
23) doodle on your desk...in pen (;
24) always be late
25) make up excuses why you couldn't do your homework
26) wear sunglasses and say you have a headache
27) always ask "WHY"
28) photoshop a picture of the teacher doing something embarrassing
29) insist on being Batman
30) make them look stupid by sounding super smart
Try not to get in trouble....
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